My "Me Vacation"

 

 

Life goes around us so quickly that it is, at times a stressor that you just can't get away from. The demands put upon us seem insurmountable at times; and if our boundaries are like rubber bands, we tend to get caught up in the insanity of always 'doing' because we can't say no. I am learning to get better at this, but still have not quite learned how to do it without feeling some pangs of guilt.

 

I have learned over the years that I need time alone; so I planned a vacation for myself. It is a way that I relax, refocus and regenerate. I must admit that there were times prior to my departure that I become somewhat apprehensive, but I knew in my heart I needed this. After I was on the road and heading north, I began to feel the layers of stress dissipate and the anticipation of what was to come rise in my heart.

 

The 4 days I spent ended up to be different than I had planned, but yet I loved what I did. Adaptability was accepted and I went on my way experiencing the steps to refreshing my soul.

 

The ways of the world and the perception of another's being is often confusing in my mind as I focus on something I may have missed or not achieved in life. I met people from such different backgrounds and while I felt some anguish thinking I missed out on something, or that my life had been so deprived of an arena of life I could only imagine; I realized that my worth comes from God and God alone.

 

Was it envy or inquisitiveness to hear their stories? My story is so different, but it is not one where I would want a person to shelve me in the pity section of the book store. Such abandon to the world of the lowly shook me a tad, but at the same time I felt as though I was the hero. My work, my life, my world; failures and successes; have not all taken place for the world to see. My mind is the script and paper is my stage.